Duck and Run

Been awhile since I wrote. The problem is, my life is at such a complete standstill right now, I don't know what to write.I mean really, who wants to listen to the mindless ramblings of a 17 yr old girl?
I could share my frustration with school and religously prejiduced teachers, or how much my home life does in reality suck, or so on and so forth. But who wants to listen to me whine?
*I* don't even want to listen to me whine.
I should work on my other site tomorrow. I probably won't get around to it, but I should.
Jennie

Ouch...my neck...it hurts...I can't turn my head with out starting to black out.

Can I say hi to someone?
Why am I asking? This is my page
So....hi to Jeff from PA

I am in such a weird mood today. I went to John's to watch the football game and I ended up on sitting on Aaron. I'm not sure how, I think we were both fighting for a spot on the couch and he laid down and took up the whole thing. So I sat on him. And it was comfortable (for me anyway)
So I stayed.
Jennie

I am sitting here eating Kraft singles. Nothing like processed indivually plasic wrapped slices of cheese to cheer someone up.
Actually I'm home alone and don't feel like cooking anything for supper. This is about as far from cooking as you can get.
Jennie

Who apparently feels the need to post 7 times in one day? Heh heh...ok, it was a whack day...what do you want???

Why are you reading this? Are you amused by the pathetic physco ramblings of an idiotic teenage atypical girl?

the demons in my head
my invitation brought them in
i thought they were dead
they've come to life again
swarming round and round
they make me dizzy
and i'm falling down
i'm spinning spinning
through the air
no one waiting
to catch me there

What? Am I trying to make up for lost time here or something?
I'm such a loser. I should've called up Chuckie or Chris or someone and gone and done something instead of sitting here being all weirded out. Between Dan's not talking to me and my parents and school and DP I'm gonna go freakin' nuts here.
Breathe Jennie Breathe. Only 1 year, 1 month, and 3 weeks left.

Jennie

School was actually pretty good today. I don't know why. I felt more accepted. 2 of the senior guys started conversations with me. Paul and Brian. That kind of surprised me.
And Ben challenged me to a drag race. Ok, he challenged the whole world history class, but still.....he's a cutie. Not like a "I wanna date him" type cutie though. Our personalitys are like Polar opposites
I would drive him nuts.

I e-mailed him. Why? Who knows?
I'm completely torn here. I missed him. A lot. At first.
But then I kinda started to move on. And I met Dan and managed to be actually happy for the whole 5-6 weeks that lasted &
he hooked up with someone, too.
None of which should bother me, because, as far as I know, there wasn't much beyond friendship between us, in reality.
Of course trying telling that to my insides, which still twisted when I heard KT talk about him as if she owned him. That was interesting. I learned that I am not half bad at hiding what I'm thinking when push comes to shove.
And then NT mentioned he was looking for my e-mail addy. I debated for months about whether I should or not. The past sucks. I prefer not to think about it. He is part of my past. But I don't think I want to forget about him either.
All of this to say, I'm not sure this is going to be a good thing.
Jennie

*groan* ever done something and then not been sure it was such a smooth idea?

Ok, so it only took me a week.
We got there (the arena) about 9:00AM-9:30ish and we were like the second group in line. I went semi-goth for this. I saw Lindsay there and JJ too. That was cool, he's the last person I would expect to be there.
So anyway at about 12:30 we got in and it was great. We left the first half early b/c DB was having stomach cramps and was worried about DBJr Everything was fine and I got to use valet parking.
I saw Matt as we were waiting for the second half. What a cutie, must remember to write him.
So for the Audio A set, I am right down in front can't get closer if I tried. And I go absolutely freaking nuts. I was going crazy all day jumping yelling screaming to my hearts content. And the start singing "Big House" and I'm the only one on the floor doing the motions and Will McGinnes (bass) notices. I almost died.
And then, it's like the last chorus of the last song, and I haven't had anything to drink all day (stupid I know) and I've been going freaking nuts, remember? So I collapse (dehydration) and they haul me out of there and take me backstage. So I am backstage as Audio A. comes off AND I didn't miss any of their set. Ohmanohmanohman I almost died.
And then I drove all 50 miles back home alone, b/c DB (who came with me) had gone home after aforementioned trip to hospital.

Amazing how a good concert can improve life. And this year's Power of One was awesome. 9 hours of awesome Christian rock music. I was on the floor the whole time.
Supper is ready. An actual sitdown homecooked meal. Can't pass that up now can I?
I'll write more later.
Jennie