Duck and Run

Grrrr......
say it with me ppl "I'm mad as hell and I'm not gonna take it anymore"
Good, now that you got that out of your system, sit back and let authority walk all over you

Especially if there is no place to go.

Ok, temporary insanity.
But I do want out of here. I'm looking at my options. Enduring, Leaving, Dying.
The first one isn't working, I tried the third one and failed. (ha, I failed at failing...) and so that leaves me with just one. And I don't think it would work.
Jennie

I want to so bad. I know just how to, too. I could leave Sat morning, stop at the bank and withdraw my money, drive up to the UP and the down into lower MI (b/c who in their right mind would go up North?) and the earliest anyone would miss me would be about 5:00 (at work) and they wouldn't think much of it if someone skipped a shift. It's been known to happen.(not by me) and even if they did who would they call? My parents are gone.
Anyway I could call in sick too. And then the earliest anyone would notice me gone would be 11:30-12:00.
I could stop at Dan's and see him real quick and the from there, who knows? Cali maybe? New York? Anywhere I wanted!

My parents are going to my great-grandmother's funeral Fri. Sat and Sun
The thought comes to mind that this would be a good time to leave, b/c it would be awhile before anyone notices.

Bored as heck. If this lasts much longer, I will go crazy.

Ok, I made chili today.I was trying to be nice. My mom was busy all day, didn't have time, hey cool I'll surprise her with this right?
Not like it's hard. Fry up the hamburger, dump in a jar of (home-made...spoiled aren't I?) tomatoe sauce and canned (also by my mommy) tomatoes, and a little chili powder.
My dad, my incredibley picky won't eat anything with flavor, asked for a second bowl. My mom says "You know Jennie made this" He makes this horrible face and pushed it away. I don't think he knew I was standing there, but still.......he liked it before.
Jennie

I see my missing post showed up. Grr...stupid computer. I hate computers, I hate home, I hate school, I hate work and I hate the fact that I let myself get that atatched to ppl this summer. Why why why???? I knew better. Nothing ever works out. I'm just everybodys fall back girl. Not the girl you ask to go to the movies, but the girl you call when you're girlfriend decides she doesn't want to watch some bloody action flick therefore bailing on you with some lame exuse about a dying great great aunt or something.
Sorry, I can get kinda carried away when I'm irritated. I'm not mad at anyone but myself though. I knew better, I always do that. Oh well, little late now, eh?
Besides who needs a guy?
Jennie

Um, boring boring day today. As usual.
Here's a question for you all. What is the point of wearing your favorite pair of stars and rockets skivies, if noone ever sees them??
Jennie

Ok, where did my last post go????
I talked about how I did something really wierd and cooked. Actual food. Not from a can or a box or anything. Which is cool, b/c I prefer real food when I can get it. I just don't usally like the work involved.
Long day today. I hate it when the customers come in stoned and/or drunk.
Jennie

it's been kinda a weird day. I actually cooked something. I haven't done that in a long time. But I was at the store and saw that soup-in-a-can stuff. It disgusted me, but it made me want soup. So I went home and made some chicken noodle soup. And cookies. B/c what kind of home-cooked meal doesn't include desert?
Yeah, now I have to go clean up before I leave for work.
Jennie

Hmmm.....well..plans are in motion for *my* concert. Big long all day thing with various Christian pop/rock bands. Not much heavy stuff this year :-( Tri63 (somewhat heavier), Audio Adrenaline (good solid band...not pop, but not real heavy either) Sonic Flood (pop worship/praise band) Rebecca St James (pop singer) and Rachel Lampa (someone I should know who is, but don't)
First three should be good.
Anyway, I am going to be dah dah da dah "The Driver". A title I have longed to hold since my earlier days. Doors open at 1:00, so I figure if we get there about 10:00 we should be one of the first ones in the door. Booyah.
I'm just not sure DB wants to hang out in the cold for that long. I'm not sure it's healthy for her either. Or her kid.
Grr...If I weren't so nice, this wouldn't bother me.
Jennie

That's odd. I don't know why any of my posts were published last night. I know I hit the button.
My car stalled again. It can't be fixed either. My poor minivan is dying. Which means I get to move on to the little blue grandma car sitting in my driveway (heh heh....I just got this mental photo of a blue grandma)
Had another "discussion" with my parents about college. Do they not realize that right now my sole goal is to get out of this cursed house??
Jennie

Or not, whatever
I seem to have a knack for attracting ppl my parents would freak over. I met some ppl who are into a neopaganistic religion....again.
Do I have some sort of big sign on my forehead saying "Talk to me"?
I don't really mind, but I know my parents would/will freak if/when they find out. So, moral dilema, do I continue these relationships, hoping and praying that they won't drag me away from God (ending it as when/if that starts) or do I ditch it now? oi...oi...oi
Jennie

I will make this counter work!

Ok..so I slacked off a little. Actually it wasn't totally my fault. Really bad weekend. I didn't want to wake up this morning. Do you ever have days like that? You go to bed wishing you wouldn't wake up and then the next morngin you're like "Curses! Another day of miserable existence on this planet!" Maybe it's just me:-)
Oh well, life continues and I will survive
I had a really weird dream about LLBC. I was up there, but it wasn't camp, it was this huge glass building. But I *knew* it was LLBC.
But anyway, we were racing the 4wheelers across the swamp, and Steve left his on the edge of the pond. He got in trouble because Dan had to go move it so that it wouldn't get covered in lily pads when the tide came in. I applied to work there, but they rejected my application. They told me I was unstable and brought up that whole mess w/DP (which In Real Life, no one up there knows anything about) But yeah it was a little weird.
I'm kinda scared that's going to happen though. That they won't let me go up there. That they'll find something wrong with my application or that my beliefs are still a little screwy. (that whole DP thing...I don't blame him for it though...I made the stupid choice to hang out with him and get all caught up in that shtuff)
Stupid mistake stupid stupid stupid mistake. But there's not much I can do about the past, eh?
Jennie